`Wednesday, February 09, 2005;__
new year eve.
sch ends at 9.20am? okay arnd there.
the performances ... well nth much
to say. but i still lk the lion dance.
oh and the one with karen and nazura
tts 1 was lk damn cute. hahas so funny
and tt gal she was singin malay but
i tot she wad cryin` LOLS lame heh.
so went back to west view with teng,
rowenna, rongxin, jon, and alot lah..
so when we reach west view, the students
were lk ALL singlin so loud sia. hahas can
hear them from outside the sch.=.=
k den later while waitin for them to release
we were waitin for guonian and some fren
outside the gate. hais i saw HIM, bram and
warren. =.= my heart!!! OH GOSH ..
was lk beatin damn fast. and asked the gals
to feel my heart beats they were lk =.=''
yea i admit i was damn nervous. i dunnoe y.
happy to see him? dunnoe. but i jus dun dare
to look to their dirrection. den erm jon wanna
call them but i stopped him.
den later went to look for teachers and den tok
awhile but den the sch was lk gonna close! so
yep gotta leave. den jon went back home cos
he got sth on. den me, rx, rowenna & teng
so headed to BP plaza for lunch! damn hungry
sia. on the way there saw them, they were
walkin infront of us but end up we reach the traffic
light first. so yep they were lk standin bside us.
=.='' once again my heart was lk popin out. =.=
k so we went to foodcourt and den i felt so depressed.
had this mixed feelings. my heart hurts and i felt
lk huggin someone real bad. if i could..
den later they went other way. so yep didnt see them.
den when we finished our lunch, we went down to
northern light. i saw THEM again. this time
i saw lots of 6J 2004 people. were all crowd
outside the longjohn? then wanted to see him
for one last time, so rowenna drag me towards him
but i didnt go. den i jus went away. den later rowenna
went to look for him and ask him to go find me.
lk WTF loh, den i ran to watsons den hide there
but he still came in. den said Hi! but i didnt even look
at him. i was so regret. my heart shattered into
pieces. stopped beatin and i find myself hard to breath.
my tears filled my eyes. and i manage to hold them back.
hais den later on walk awhile and head to lot 1.
hais wasnt in the mood. so waited for my bro
den went home together. eh yep so here i m now. bloggin.
gotta be have my reunion dinner soon. cyas.
erm happy new year to all! =] best regards.
[[ i wanted to tok to u very much,
but the moment i see u, i cant help
but to turn my head away from u.
i dare not to look into ur eyes.
the moment u left me and walk
off, my tears wanted to roll down,
i hold them back. i keep them
and save them for myself. i cried.
how i wish i wud tok to u lk i used to,
how i wish u were by my side to wipe
my tears off. how i wish u were by
my side when i need u the most.]]
aint a happy new yr for me.
i'm depressed. i jus so hate myself
for not tokin to u jus now. i hate the
fellings when u i felt as though my
heart was stabbed by some shap weapons.
it hurts. i kept complainin it hurts
when i was with my pals jus now.
i did. i jus feel so hurt. as if my heart is
breakin to smaller pieces every second.
[[ my heart is broken.]]
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:39 AM;__
